addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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4am mornings don't do much for my overall productivity cos i end up napping after i get home from school.
chemistry and GP suddenly seem so dull and annoying. grades are really a turn off.
juggling normal school with revision is such a PAIN. ARGH. and i keep putting off my runs. which greatly affects my mood. in a bad way.
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh.
alisa was right about studying being a lot like training for tri. in tri you have 3 disciplines, much like the 4 subjs i'm grappling with now. i just need to condition myself. endurance, speed. hai.. differences are that i don't get to feel brain muscles growing, or post-studying endorphins, or feel good about myself after burning kcals cos studying's such a sedentary thing.
attempting to follow my plans is depressing cos i'm so friggin tired after sch i hardly have the energy to complete what i set out to do. sadly, food doesn't do much to my energy or motivation levels.
postcard that mummy gave me that's still sitting on my table (since BT1.. lol) "POSITIVE THINKING IS HALF THE WORK".
I WANT MY STUDY HOURS BACK SO I CAN SPENd tHE WHOLE DAY AT THE LiBRARY OR SOMETHING and not have to worry about homework or going to school. am becoming awfully unfit. feel my heart beating so fast when cycling to and from sch. and the runs seem more tiring. really took being fit for granted. must rmb to maintain healthy exercise frequency.
penny if you are reading this i miss you! feel like i haven't talked to you in ages....... :(